Relieved, because the past week has been crazy. At the start of the week I was feeling so deflated and overwhelmed by schoolwork and rehearsals. But thank God for the friends around who were pillars of strength. And well, it got progressively more enjoyable (:
I've been bitter about doing Evo, because it was at the expense of ballet and academics. But really, who am I to complain. There're so many other dancers who're even busier and yet are doing 3/4 items; my own considerations seem so parochial next to theirs. Perhaps if I had committed more readily, I would've enjoyed the experience more. But now's not the time for regrets lah.
Evo has been a humbling experience. There are many many good dancers who're able to both perfect their technique and emote the essence of the dance. They give meaning to each movement. I could never hope to attain that kind of standard, and watching them just makes me feel so insignificant and inadequate.
In retrospect, I miss it despite how tiring it was. Had quite abit of fun dabbling in production nitty gritties, fooling around alot, rushing from dressing room to dressing room to find people, eating Rachel's caramel popcorn, getting frustrated at daily make-up malfunctions, helping with quick changes, meeting new people, and experiencing what it's like to be on stage. I nearly forgot how it felt like to be part of such an atmosphere.
Fangxi's (Acquiescence) <3
I remember how the first few rehearsals gave me a sore back for several days because the movements were so foreign, a language I couldn't get used to. But it's been a good experience attempting such a style. And most of all it's been enjoyable because the choreographer and dancers are so nice.
Evocation 2010
In the recent months I've come to view DE obligations with much reluctance. Perhaps it's because the idea of DE didn't quite sit with my idea of what a CCA should be like. Perhaps it's because I'm not as emotionally attached. Perhaps I decided to be bitter right from the start.
I hope that will change now that Evo's over. Since I've already committed to it, might as well make something out of the experience rather than feel dispirited every Saturday.
I'm glad Evo ended on a high note, now that dance is no longer an excuse, I guess it's time to start studying. Unproductiveness and sloth have gotten the better of me these days D:
