Yesterday was our last day of work at NJ. Leaving the workroom for the final time was ambivalent. For once since January, the workroom was neat when we left :D Funny how the human mind works; work was so tiring and mundane, but I miss it when it's finally over.
I'll miss the routine of waking up at 6am, walking like a dazed zombie to Ms Lim's desk to retrieve my laptop, and getting ready for the day's saikang while simultaneously freezing in the workroom. I'll miss seeing the TAs and teachers around, squabbling with Annie over trivial matters, getting into nonsensical (or sometimes informative) discussions with the rest of the TAs, greeting Ms Lim when I hear her distinct shuffling feet, poking Ms Oon when I walk in and out of the staff room, getting ready to defrost for lunch, making a thousand trips to Ms Selva's desk a day because she keeps disappearing.
But having said that, I guess it's always nice to have the freedom to slack. I only have 2 more months to do so anyway.
Our NJ TA Warrior shirts :D
With Ms Lim and Ms Ang (:
The end of work brought about a resolve to conclude my university stuff, and I have finally sorted out the rest of my university decisions.
Like a pendulum that always swings back to its equilibrium position, just when I thought I had everything planned out, the NEW offer pulled me back to square one. I think that even if I had one more month to decide, I wouldn't have changed my decision. But the fact that I waited this long to decline UPenn and NEW is a reflection of my indecisiveness. I resent myself for it.
I think I know why I chose Medicine over Engineering, and I pray that this resolve will be strong enough to sustain me.
