CA1 is in 4 days. It's been a crazy few weeks preparing for it, and I haven't felt so stressed since the A Levels. It's the kind of studying where you're completely overwhelmed by the amount of information there is. Even though I've covered the syllabus once, I can't remember 70% of it. The modules like Microbiology and Pharmacology kill because there's no shortcut to it, it's just chewing and swallowing information. I feel daunted everytime I look at the tables.

I thought that I had learnt how to handle stress better since I entered medical school. I'm no longer the same idiot I was during my term in WD and the As. But well, these periods happen once in a while. Everytime my friends talk through something, I realize that I cannot answer them, or I simply cannot remember even though I just studied it a few days ago. I really think I'm the most intellectually challenged person in med school even though I try very very hard to keep up with my academics. Maybe my studying methods are wrong, or I just have a smaller brain capacity. But it does make me feel very lousy. I'm really grateful though, for the encouragement and the company I get from friends. It's nice to know that you're not in this alone, and I feel abit more motivated to study everytime although it's so so tiring.

A friend shared Psalm 34:4 with me a few months back: I sought the Lord and He answered me, He delivered me from all my fears. It's strangely comforting (: Jia you friends, this is just one of many more hurdles to come, but we'll make it through together I'm sure.