The decision to take H2 Economics was akin to embracing a time bomb that has gone off 4 times over, and unfortunately the most apocalyptic explosion came during the As.
I whacked at everything I could during case studies, forcing myself to be calm, lucid, and just write. Even if it was crap, I lingered in the hope that crap would save some parts of the grade. Flawed logic noted.
Everytime I think about the Econs papers, disappointment sweeps through. It's the one subject I promised myself with all determination I could muster that I would not screw up, the one subject I invested all the time I could, and in the end still crashed.

We called Ms Heng after the paper, albeit shaken and very much disappointed, and poor her was trying to reassure us that we were just being paranoid. I couldn't bring myself to believe her.
The finality of stowing away my Econs file was bittersweet. I've resented time and time again crying over Econs for my blatant lack of ability. But yet, I think I force myself to study so hard because in some impossible way, I think I like the subject (for reasons that have nothing to do with Microeconomics), even though paradoxically I hate it to the core for causing me so much distress.
I'm sorry for disappointing you Ms Heng ): Now, there can be no "I promise to do better next time".